With awkward moments....

So after my breakdown with M, things have gone weird.

So POF has sent a few weirdos around my way. The one girl that has caught my attention has been S. She is cool but she has a drinking problem. And she has made it clear that she wants to be friends? Not sure if that is exactly what it is or what. Confusion with her comes from her always wanting to hang out with me. But then turning around and telling me about her type. Bitch has tons of friends... But yet you wanna hang out with me all the time. Yea makes tons of sense! I don't even hang out with my actual friends that much!

Anyhow her friend in which she cuddles with is completely someone I would be interested in! She is so adorable! But whatevas I'm not looking for a relationship.

Me and M are just friends now. It's kind of a long story but maybe it's for the best. Long distance is hard even though it really wasn't that bad. I mean I still like her and hope that one day me might be able to work things out but for right now oh wells.

Anyhow it's time for a late night run to Walmart for meds and shit! I sound like a tard!

Lost...

I'm so lost right now! I'm at a point in my life where it seems as if things couldn't be anymore fucked up than they are. I lost my job, the girl I liked and now I'm laying in her bed next to her wishing there was a way to escape. I don't want to be here right now!

My life has gone from being fine to a completely shit show where I have no clue on how to get a grips with it! I'm
Just over everything. I wanna escape,

Maybe she is right and I don't know enough about her to know how I feel about her. After tonight and the things that were said I have no clue what to expect anymore. I'm over the cards being dealt to me. Way too much hit has come to me in the past few months and it all started with me changing my mind about moving to Ohio. Followed by my steps of coming out. I feel like my life is ruined.

I can't get my masters. I can't find a job. And shit is spiraling put of control!